"when you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change"
A timeless truth to life and the universe. For about 20 mins I was bumbed because I had thought that the circumstance if having no money, would have hindered my ability to have a "good new year."
Believing in magic and superstition as I do, I believe in the theory that how you begin your year is how you spend it. And I thought I would be spending 2013 stuck, if I couldn't get to where I was going. Then, ever so wisely, my dad said to me "maybe you'll just be travelling this year". Bing! Bang! Boom! My mind flashed. I finished his sentence, the above quote. So now I am on the train to brooklyn. Rethinking everything about my situation.
Its really time for a new view. Not a new me, just an adjustment in how I look and react to things. A change to the energy I carry, distribute and receive. A change to how I become the person of greatness I see myself becomming.
Starting with today. Today it becomes official when I go to sign the divorce papers. For the last year I've been crying, allowing myself to attribute it to love. From a different view, I see it has been my spirits way of mourning a lost love. He woll always be the image I hold in my heart because at his.core, he is a good man. But maybe he's not the right partner for me. From this alternate view, I am okay with that. As of today, my ties to him are gone. I know because of the shift I feel inside my skin. I see his face and no longer see that man I loved. And I'm ok. Even better, I am good. I know its okay to let go.
Today I am free. I set myself free from worry, guilt, fear, doubt, hypocracy, arrogance, anger, jealousy & irrational hatred. I will become the change I want to see in the world. Starting with this: changing my view.
C. Joi Sanchez
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